i knew it was gona happen

right from the start when i saw how they treat her.

they can do that to her, they can do that to me too.

i didnt wana say anything cause i didnt wana assume.

but looks like i was correct.

since i alrdy except this outcome.

why am i feeling so shitty?

the feeling of being betrayed

the feeling of having to face hypocrites.

two-face fucks.

i dont get it, why cant people be truthful

or like at least see and try to understand.

like come on,

isit my fault that im stupid?

isit my fault that im a slow-learner?

at least if i know i cant contribute to the researching part

i got try to do other stuff to make up for it.

sorry, i didnt know giving random suggestions and being clueless about the main idea

still shows tat im not contributing.

sorry that im so stupid that i cant contribute to the projects.

i really feel like quitting school,

im not meant to study science.

im not meant to study anything.

im useless like fuck.

a lousy friend

a lousy group mate

a lousy student

a lousy frisbee player.

im hopeless, useless.

its such a torture, to maintain a strong front.

to not affect my friends

esp when we all have to focus on our projects.

sigh.

my lifes fucked.

whats my purpose living again?