4 more papers left.
cell tech,
ABC,
Indust,
HBD.

fuck i dont wana study ABC.SCREW U :(
but its a 3credit module.ARGH.

today's paper.
i think i'll just pass,
section c cfm ace, but section a and b?
lets just hope im lucky, and i guess like more den half correctly.



on the way back, i was like thinking.
why the hell God so unfair,
gimme so many physical problems and like my character sucks
but like make other ppl so beautiful character so nice.
unfair GOD, you are so freaking UNFAIR.
those not so pretty ones, at least can like excel in studies or in something..
or like have found their partner.
even they not pretty right, they have good complextion and they like lucky lucky can go modelling.
fuck luh.UNFAIR.

i rmbed one time when my parents were talking,
den they saw my hair line n said that my childhood was bad.
my mum den said her childhood where got bad, born alrdy got big house everything.
den in my heart i was like...
..fuck you dont know how unhappy i was back den.
when im alone at home and always get bullied in school.
and get scolded or blamed at for nth by my sisters...
got big house, eat good food, so what.
i was also damn stupid last time, cannot rmb a single thing.
got to work fucking hard just to pass decently..
I WAS UNHAPPY!
and i am UNHAPPY NOW!
maybe if my childhood wasnt so fucked, my character wld be better.
and i wld have a easy life fitting in to ultimate now.



i dont think i'll ever get married,
even if i do, it'll prolly end up wrong.
touch wood but yea.
i tend to fall for guys who are different.
the guy im looking for is one who got a status in society, understanding,
patient, dont get angry easily, smart, sporty, outgoing, dont get jealous, takes initiative, capable and looks after me like a guy should look after his love one.
totally opposite of me .
im not very understanding, im not patient. neither am i sporty enough,outgoing takes initiative or capable of anything.and i get jealous and angry fairly easy.




okay ranting mood over,
just prolly wished i had better complexion,figure and definitely smarter in everything..
:( i miss those cats at the guard house.
and i miss my sec sch friends, they make me feel im normal