i dont know if i can take it anymore.
i just keep telling myself i can do it,
but its hard to stay positive
when the odds are obviously against you.
i swear, im trying so hard to stay positive, thats why i havent give up on studying yet.
i still sleep at 2.30am, wake up at 5am today just to study.
seriously hope, i can make it.
and freaking not repeat any module.

other den todays paper,
tml's paper is like gona be EVEN WORSE..
cause i got a freaking F for CT.
must not repeat module,
otherwise i'll seriously kill myself.
for someone who have always been excelling in studies,
to repeat modules is a fucking disgrace.
i will nv ever do that.
if i hv to repeat, i'd rather quit school.
cause it just shows im not meant for it..
say im too egoist or wdv
its just way too painful for me.
ive lost my place in ultimate, drop my standard for my studies
but i MUST not repeat.
its just that small bit that holds the line..
from saying that ive lost everything i hold pride in
and from keeping it, giving me at least a small little purpose and a sense of usefulness in my life.
" at least, my grades are not that bad.i still got some hope. "



God, help me.at least make me smarter like for NOW till exams end.